As some of you may or may not know, I had a miscarriage and lost my baby. I had to go to UVRMC and deliver my baby. So on May 13, 2010 at 12:22 a.m. little Riley Harper, my son, was delivered. He was only 5 inches long and weighed 2.2 ounces. A tiny little thing, but perfect indeed!! What an awful experience to go through, but I'm doing okay! I got to spend about three hours with him in the hospital. An AMAZING lady came to the hospital and took care of him for us. She dressed him (in clothes that Matt's Aunt Shirlee made), took copies of his feet and hand prints, took photoz of him, and then made some molds of his tiny little feet and hands. I'm sooo grateful to her for taking such great care of my little son!! He was perfect, just had the cord wrapped very tightly around his neck twice so he wasn't able to come to this earth. We were able to bury him on May 15, 2010 for some more closure. I hope that I can get back to a NEW NORMAL life whatever that might be! I wanted to THANK EVERYONE from the bottom of my broken heart for all the thoughts, comments, prayers, flowers, food, money, and just EVERYTHING that everyone has done for me and my family!! I am sooo blessed and sooo grateful for all of you and for my family!! This is a terrible thing to go through, but we're going through it and trying to understand and doing okay :-)!! Through my faith I know I will see him perfect and living and be able to wrap my arms around him, but not right now. It's a sad thing, but I'm trying to understand God's Plan and hopefully some day I will understand! I really am doing okay and that's all I can do for right now! I had to CANCEL eight photo shoots for May and the dance revue so I'm taking it easy and am going to NOT be so busy when I start back up. Thankz for understanding and caring!! Rayni :-)
Here's my new family photo that I will cherish FOREVER!!!
Matt, MaLayni, me holding Riley, and Oaklee on May 15, 2010
What a beautiful and perfect family. Love the picture it is so precious and priceless.
ReplyDeleteRayni,
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking alot about you and your family, and considering what I would do in such a situation. Life is never fair and we never have it the way we plan, I've learned that all too well.
I just wanted to say with the highest regards and respect what a sad time, but such a blessing that little boy is. The only thing I've been able to think about is what a honor to be chosen as the parents of a perfect son, who only needed to come to earth long enough to gain a physical body and return to a loving heavenly father, to help him carry out his eternal purposes in heaven while you and your family are living out your lives here to prepare for your eternity. What a tremendous feeling I had about that when I pondered about what had happened and contemplated how I could help.
I hope all becomes well again and I hope that you and your family can find peace and love in the plans our Heavenly Father had for such a perfect little spirit. I hope your lives will be blessed.
Thank You for being a GREAT visiting teacher. I've loved the opportunity to get to know you & Kristin. You guys have befriended me unconditionally and I appreciate it. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help!
Love,
Heather